Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth. Not possible, as life changes a person, and we all grow... hopefully for the better. This is an online journal of my thoughts, my findings, and my lessons learned.
There are days, and times when I struggle to be inspired; I don’t mean it just in finding something to write about, but also in life in general.
There are times, where I feel stuck… Maybe because I don’t think that there is something that exciting going on in my life currently, or perhaps, I start wondering whether I have made the right decisions in the past… Whether I regret something, whether it is too late to start anew.
Then, there are days like today, where you are browsing the internet out of boredom, hoping you come across something interesting… and it finally happens:
Knowing you are not the only person who has regrets, should give you hope and enough inspiration to keep fighting… To take THAT risk, to get out of your comfort zone and make your dreams come true… Because, what could possibly come out of life if you always play it safe, if you don’t feel truly alive… and happy?
What is your biggest regret? Isn’t it the fear itself… The fear of failing?
Take the leap!
Sometimes, you can come across a piece of art or creation, by a total stranger and it speaks to you.
This is one instance:
The first time I read it, I didn’t realise that certain words had a strike-through, which made me think that that the author was exploring more than the good things in life.
I actually imagined this unnamed artist to try the entire list and than scratching the bad experience once he/she realises it was a mistake. Which makes me question: why is touching neon something we shouldn’t do? Perhaps, it is not something which you shouldn’t do, maybe it is something not worth remembering.
What is your list of things you enjoy doing?
Here is mine:
– Laughing
– Travelling / exploring / adventuring
– Getting lost in a good TV Series / Books
– Capturing Moments
– Food!! Eating… and Cooking 🙂
– Appreciating and being appreciated
– Loving and being loved
– Being inspired
– Learning something new
– Staying up all night talking to someone special ❤
– Being lost in never-ending nature, away from the internet and troubles
…the list is probably never ending.
The Parish Church of Saint Mary, is popularly known as the Rotunda or the Mosta dome due to its large dome; which can be seen from most parts of Malta.
The church was designed by a Maltese architect called Giorgio Grognet de Vassé. The church’s design was closely based on the Pantheon in Rome; 6 columned portico with a circular 39.6m diameter dome. It was built between the 1833 and 1860 with funds raised by the local people.
During World War 2 in 1942, a bomb fell through the church and it didn’t detonate. This was considered as a miracle especially since around 300 people were in the church waiting for the mass to commence. A replica of the said bomb is available to see in the sacristy, left of the altar.
Around 2 weeks ago it was announced that my favourite living stand-up comedian will be in Malta in April. In case you are wondering, yes it is Jimmy Carr. You can imagine my sheer excitement about this news… So much so, due to the fact that I would have never thought he’d step foot on this forsaken island.
Now I wish he didn’t.
Why? You ask.
BECAUSE.
Because, while the REST OF THE WORLD gets to enjoy a Jimmy Carr show with the below pricing, in Malta the prices start at 50 Euro per seat, which would give you the worse sitting places, and on top of that, the VIP seats (which are front cinema seats so to speak) are sold at 120 Euro each.
£25 is roughly 32 Euro
Trying to get tickets is a nightmare for various reasons. The company selling the tickets just put up the tickets on sale today, with no advise on time and date these will be made available beforehand (unlike in the UK, where announcements are placed with date and time and instructions on from where you can obtain such tickets). To add insult to injury, I found out the tickets were on sale around 30 minutes after it all started, which resulted in:
If I were to purchase tickets, the good seats (which I could afford, which were nowhere close to the 120 euro band) were taken
The website was not accepting my password, throwing random error messages in my face
The website would not let me reset my password claiming I had multiple accounts tagged to the same email address (which is not my fault really, if the website database sucks so much)
Registering with another email address took me multiple attempts due to it being to busy, probably the website was set-up on the cheapest server plan available
Up until an hour ago (4pm), I was still not even able see the seating plan, let alone buy tickets (this was 4 hours after the tickets went on sale).
In conclusion, much to my disappointment, I decided to boycott this initiative as I am not willing to put my hard-earned money onto a seat which would cost me at least twice as much in any other venue overseas.
Next step is to plan my next UK visit wisely and make sure I will de-tour to one of Jimmy Carr’s shows before I visit my boyfriend in Wales. Unless he’d like to join me of course.
Side-note: Due to my avid fascination and love for this comedian, I did end up going to his shows in 2011 (Stoke-on-Trent), 2012 (Stoke-on-Trent) and 2014 (Stockport) all in the UK. The last time I visited, Jimmy personally asked for a photo with me which I was planning to take to the show to get it signed in April. Guess my mission will be completed later on in the year, although postponed at this very moment.
When it comes to the subject on how valuable we are, one would think firstly on money. It is true that having an indefinite amount of money, would make you to an extend superior than anyone else, because it means that you can live comfortably, afford the little (and big!) things in life. With money one can upgrade his/her gadgets when they see fit, and spend money loosely without wondering if they they’d survive until months end.
But in reality, money is just money, and things are just things. They’d make you happy when you get them, but sooner or later it is just yet another thing you own, which you will most likely put aside when something better comes along. It is only temporary….
You cannot put a price on what truly is valuable in ourselves and our lives… For instance, the memories we make, we will cherish for the rest of our life. Loving the people close to us, will make us feel complete, and despite the fights and disagreements, we all make our peace and never put each other aside. Investing our time on this and reminiscing about this would always bring a smile to our face. So does, when helping someone in need (a random act of kindness), or a friend who is in a rough situation.
Money, and possessing lots of expensive things, is all fine and dandy, but not if you have no one to share them with because you are just focused on work or you are greedy. Nothing makes your heart happier and rich than when you matter to people, and when you are loved for who you are.
Always appreciate what you have, and don’t do anything silly to jeopardise it. Remember, there are always people around you who want what you have. Never take it for granted.
Some of the most beautiful areas for walks or hikes in Malta are situated in the limits of Siggiewi. One of the spots goes by the name of ‘Fawwara’. The word fawwara translates to spring in English, and this name was chosen for this stretch of land due to the fact that in the past it supplied a large amount of water.
The history of this area goes as far as when the Arabs took over Malta, it has seen the death of many christian women, and proof of this is two chapels within Fawwara which are still standing to this day. These were built in 1616 and 1575. The latter even had a small village surrounding it (Hal Kbir) during the Medieval area. Needless to say, Siggiewi has existed on our little island for a very, very long time.
Below are some photos I have taken of the area, showing sunsets as well as some picturesque captures. Can’t wait to return back here in the next couple of days 🙂
First of all, I would like to apologise for being quiet all week, but it has been a very stressful week with work, with all the bad news (David Bowie, Alan Rickman), and I tried to stay away from social media as much as possible. In fact, I have been only active on instagram which you can have a look at and follow here: SteffiWorld 🙂
Anyway, onto my rant now…
Lately I have been realising that a certain someone has been copying my doings online, and note acknowledging me or even bothering to say they like it, before they do their twist of my posts. Sure, it is lovely to inspire people, but it sucks when people copy you straight up as if it was their own thing.
I know that who reads this, will quite possibly not understand my frustration and simply utter the words “welcome to the Internet! Nothing you do online is yours.” But why is it so difficult for people to admit inspiration, why can’t they ask for permission if they are not capable with coming up with their own ideas?
In the end, I actually feel sorry for them, because once their followers figure out what they’re doing, they shall hit rock bottom and lose all their recognition and popularity. What goes round comes around missy, you will pay in the end! Ha ha ha.
I know, the title of this blog post is a little bit out there and a little bit generic, but today, I am in the mood of writing what’s on my mind and that’s about it. This won’t be the most structured post you will read from my end, but it will contain some raw thoughts coming up straight from my brain onto paper.
Why are some people so hard to figure out?
I’m all up for challenges, as I am not one who likes things easy in life (might be because I always work hard to get what I want, and I was never spoon fed), but sometimes you just want things to go your way without a single word or disagreement.
It bothers me when people behave around me (in private) one way… being all funny and goofy and sweet and loyal…. and then in public they are a totally different person. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate that they feel comfortable enough around me and trust me enough to show me their soft side, but why all the changes? Why do you have to turn into a cold / inconsiderate / macho beast when with friends?
Is this normal, or is this because one of their personalities is fake, just to lure people in their life?
As if life is a popularity contest.
I know that as a person, I behave different with different people, but mainly because some of my acquaintances do not appreciate certain qualities I have and I’d rather not create chaos and go with the flow. But with people I know, love or consider as friends… I’d be truly myself…. and if you can’t deal with that… it’s your loss.
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